searching through the deserts and caves

lately, i've been thinking about where i fit in. for a while i thought i just didn't fit in at all, anywhere. slowly i'm realizing that may be a good thing. i don't tie myself down to one social circle and i stick to my convictions with each group i associate with. i'm beginning to feel comfortable knowing i have friends that truly appreciate me for who i am. people that laugh at my jokes, no matter how ridiculous and people that include me in the most hospitable ways- these are the kinds of people i am allowing myself to gravitate to. for a while, i found comfort in the familiarity of one group and sticking to that as to not push any of my own personal boundaries. something changed and i saw that i owe it to myself to reach out and explore. i enjoy surrounding myself with people who like to do things and take advantage of the day and are open to everyone else's opinion. being known for something other than the girl that doesn't smoke or drink and likes to do things early in the day is a genuine treat for me. not being self conscious of what music i like or listen to is also really great. sometimes it stops mattering how long you've known people and it starts mattering what they do. people can change for either good or bad. when it's bad, it hurts and generally sucks. i like just being myself and for the first time in a long time, i feel comfortable with who i am. it's not worth one day of feeling like you're wasting time to try and appease some people. life's too short to not do what truly makes you happy.  speaking of happy, here's a list.

lucy in the sink for bath time, walking instead of driving, organizing the most mundane things, listening to my ipod in the car with the sun roof open, packing for vacation, hotel rooms and the mini fridges they have, guava juice, cold diet coke.