until the lights burn out

i've come to the conclusion that the world might be ending. maybe not today or tomorrow, but it could in my lifetime. with all the natural disasters going on, seemingly one right after the other, i don't think it's that much of a stretch. earthquakes, record snow fall, tidal waves, and hurricanes- it's not looking too great for the world. who knows who's to blame, either. it could very well be us or it could just be the planet wanting to self destruct. why is blogger telling me destruct isn't a word? i'm certain it is. anyways, my half baked theory of the world ending is a piece of shit and we'll probably be here for at least another thousand years. i just think it's awfully suspicious with all these seismic catastrophes occurring.

i thought long and hard about it, and i have to say- i'd be okay with the world ending tomorrow. if we all go at the same time in a split second, i'd have no objections. as long as i got to be with my family and have a few calm moments at home before it all ended- i could deal with that. i'm not being pessimistic about this, i'm being quite rational. in a situation where the earth was going to implode and there was no where safe to go- wouldn't you just want to be home and not panicking? people might argue with me on the basis of "wouldn't you be upset that you didn't get to live your life?" and i would answer with this: i did a fair amount of living as it is and i wouldn't want to be here if my family, friends, and essentially everything i know was gone.

so that wraps up my summation of the human race ending. now would be a good time to add to my happy list.

shadows cast by the moon, the giant hood on my jacket that covers my face, projects coming out the way i want them to, not feeling like i'm an idiot, being listened to for the few times i need it, the fact that there is such a thing as the stinky cheese festival, volunteer work, cooking food i've never cooked before, cookbooks, catchy choruses, hot showers after a long day in manhattan and being covered in city grime, spring, law & order:svu, space heaters.