Tuesday, March 30, 2010

all is ash or the light shining through it

it's one of those days again- rainy, slightly chilly, windy, and with no sign of it letting up. i made myself get out of bed because if i stay in it on days like these, i end up feeling worse- especially if i'm the only person in said bed. it's always been apparent to me that i am weather driven person, but on stormy days like these where there is no one around and only work to do- i notice it even more. i opened my window and trying to enjoy the smell of the rain at least. the only prospect of today is really just to do a ton of work that i have no desire to do. i'm always afraid everything i do will not come out the way i'd like it to. i have a picture in my head of exactly what i want to produce and somehow the execution of that vision is near impossible. i don't know what it is about my head and my hands that don't connect sometimes. the only solution i can readily see is to keep going forward with it until it becomes what i want it to be. will it ever be what i want it to be?


having a plan, homemade pizza, food blogs, relating to a set of lyrics by the word, being able to say i'm finished with a project, greenport, my hair after i unravel braids, sweating so much that it drips down my forearms, good weather, iced green tea from panera, the giant tree behind my house, honesty, renting movies, taking my makeup off, love.

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