i woke up this morning, very early, feeling anxious for seemingly no particular reason. there was no nightmare, no being startled awake. i just opened my eyes, was aware of consciousness, and became nervous. today isn't any different from any other day, i'm not expecting anything to happen- good or bad. i just feel restless with worry and doubt, but what about? possibly, it's school starting back up sooner than later which has me wound tight or other issues- but i can identify that. this feels different, although it still could be the previously mentioned thought. maybe it's the weather. maybe it's just me. maybe it's everyone else- i'm not quite sure. i wish i could just snap out of it, whatever "it" is.
right now, all i want is to be in the arms of someone who tells me- and believes- that i'm alright and that everything will be fine.
i'll conclude with a happy list: excited dog tails slapping against the floor, i spy books, the summer time, how little kids are carefree, feeling loved, feeling safe, the assurance that someone has me in their thoughts, being sure, the end of a work day, feeling resolved.
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